Saturday, October 28, 2017

oh shit i'm in the 3rd trimester!

good god the terrible lighting does not help in pic #3!

hiii!!! i'm fully engulfed in third trimesterdom now standing at 29 weeks. that means i've really only got about two and a half months left before i pop this kid out of me. interestingly enough though, the thought of it makes me feel at ease for some reason. yeah, i know that in a few months this thing is going to take over my life, drain me and change me as a person but tell you the truth, it's sorta already been doing that. every single day most of my conversations regard some aspect of pregnancy or impending motherhood and the physical changes have already taken over much of my freedom.

speaking of which...just look at that crazy 28 week balloon belly! this shit is getting out of hand, man! the difference between 20 and 28 weeks is astonishing! i'm becoming a blob of a human being having gained somewhere between 23-26 lbs already depending on whether we're referencing the doctor's scale or my at-home scale. just to humor myself, we'll just say it's 23 so i don't go into panic mode. you guys. my jawline is legit becoming a distant memory and i swear that i can see my cheeks with peripheral vision. as i said, out. of. controooooolllll!!! along with that, i've started to get leg cramps in the middle of the night which is apparently a thing. who friggin knew? for a couple of days it actually instilled some fear of sleeping. like, should i sleep today and walk like a stiff legged zombie tomorrow or should i be a cloudy headed, sleep deprived zombie but one that doesn't look like it's walking on stilts? in this third trimester i'm already beginning to feel the sleepiness and can't imagine how much harder that's going to get. i can definitely feel the difference in weight when i'm walking but so far i don't think i'm penguin walking yet. that's my goal though. 1. pop this baby out safely. 2. DO. NOT. WADDLE, REG!!!  aside from that, the second trimester was a breeze and the third isn't so terrible so far.

the little man is moving around all the live long day too. as of just a couple of days ago i began to be able to differentiate when he's hiccuping and when he's just rolling around in there. the movements are pretty frequent now and sometimes they're strong enough that i pause from whatever i'm doing to let my innards fall back into place. such a weird feeling. don't get me wrong now, i'm grateful to be able to recognize that the baby is alive and well with evidence in the form of movement but to be honest, sometimes it's a little annoying. it's been a really hot fall season in the Bay Area and sometimes when all i want to do is veg out and be still, this animal is rolling around inside me and it's slightly unsettling. i've heard that people miss this feeling when the baby is out. i'm not sure that i will but never say never.

oh! and we've picked out a name! he's going to be Cameron Noah Lin. unless he makes his grand entrance and we're like "wait, you're not Cameron! who the hell are you!?!" but i've always loved the name Cameron and we're referring to him as Cam on a daily basis so i'm fairly certain we won't be changing his name. as for choosing his name, Cameron has been the top contender for me for years before i ever even thought of having a child. through the naming process Ted came to me with a ton of random names. some of which i was okay with and some of which were solid nos. but at some point i was like "hey man, do you love love looooove any of these names or what? because if you don't and you like Cameron, then there isn't really any question here right? let's not waste anybody's time with sorta-likes when all parties know that i'm not budging from Cameron unless there is something equi-awesome you can bring to the table." so that was that.

alright friends, that's it for now! byeee!