we're having a.....

what do you want? a boy or a girl?-- this has been asked every single day for the past few weeks by anybody who found out i was pregnant. i was pretty neutral about whether we had a boy or a girl for our first child but when #2 rolls around i'll be more preferential.  we'll be happy either way but the idea of a nuclear family with one boy, one girl and a dog would be great. 

we've got four girls who are under 4 years old in my extended family and i've imagined family trips, christmases and sleepovers being a friggin blast with five girls hanging out and giggling all night long. but then again i've got a cousin that i consider one of my best friends and i can envision our kids growing up together as close as we are. she's got a little boy and i would love for two boys to be the best of buds as well. Ted on the other hand preferred to have a girl first. he's always gotten along really well with women. in fact, most of his friends are women or was the woman first and then he'd adopt their boyfriends/husbands as friends second. but mostly i think he wants the daddy's girl relationship. 

working in the medical field, i'm lucky to have access to seeing the baby all the time, which is a god send. i can always hop in and ask to see the heartbeat or make sure things are looking good. i can't even imagine how much more stressful the gestation period could be if you don't have that option. anyhow, i couldn't wait for our anatomy ultrasound so i decided to find out early. i made sure to video chat Ted so we could find out together. 

aaaand....

it's a boy! check out that little pein i'm growing right now. there's a pretty solid helmet, if i do say so myself. haha! so now i'm currently the owner of a penis and a vagina. crass, i know. but you know me by now, don't you? 

if i'm being honest, the moment i heard we were having a boy, there were a few moments when i thought "but what if it were a girl instead." grass is always greener, huh? but just for a moment. when i think about it, i've always wanted boys for my pets and i'm sort of more like a dude myself in general. i'm wrapping my mind around the idea that our house is going to be overrun by boys and penises. Ted, two dogs and now i've got one of my own. haha!